April 30, 1767

1767 April 30 (Thursday).  Was called up between one and two.  He expired about 1/2 after two.  Surprizing, Shocking providence!  He was taken ill but last Friday — dressed to go to Meeting last Lords Day — but was notable.  He was delirious by Tuesday noon and continued so (as was conceived) till he dyed.  May we be deeply humbled under the mighty Hand of God!  In the Morning I returned home.  Mr. Fish came — dined with me.  I Sent John to Capt. Wood, and to Mr. Edwards Whipple to go down to Mr. Andrews’s.  P.M. Mr. Fish and I accompanyed by Mr. Cushing and Mr. Whipple, rode down to Mr. Andrews’s.  There were and came soon, a considerable Number — viz. Mr. Whitney, Deacon Bond, Messrs. Daniel Forbes and Gale, the two Brighams, Mr. Batherick, Capt. B. Fay, Capt. Wood.  Mr. Fish (at my proposal before the Company and at my Desire, though I think he had mentioned it on the way) prayed — for we were retired into the Chamber.  And then many endeavours were used for accommodation and reconcilement.  Mr. Andrews gave up the matter of my Saying he was Quarrelsome.  The Complaint against me, for not answering her Request to lay her Case before the Church, I pleaded against, I suppose with Success, nor would I take any Blame to my Self about it.  I think the Brethren were, finally, easy on that Head.  As to the Paper of Mrs. Warrins Testimony, I told them first, that if there was harm to Mrs. A. by that, it could not be laid to me but to Mrs. W. because that which related to Mrs. A. in it, She retained and it was still in its full Strength.  But however, Since it came to me so lame, as appeared afterwards although I could not know at the Time of it, I said I was sorry I read it.  And with regard to my taking minutes of Conversations, I was willing, since there were three very noticeable ones that were in loose Papers — viz. That which was at Mr. A. when Mr. Cleaveland was there; One out before my Yard, and one at Old Capt. Forbushs — if that would give any satisfaction — or however, I would destroy them and I accordingly Put them into the Fire.  For some time there was very little Hope — but at length Mr. A. and his wife came, one after the other and with joining Hands endeavoured to join Hearts and mutually forgave — and it was written and signed by all three — and each party had one.  Upon which we gave praise to God singing part of 133 Ps.  Mr. Timothy Warrin was there, and I besought him to be easy and that we also might wholly make up.  He answered he would, if the Brethren that were there would not say that I had broke the Agreement by what I had said to some of them and by what I said to Deacon Bond in the late Church meeting.  No one Answered to him at all, though he spake loud, and I think twice.  But yet he did not comply — but wanted I should talk with his wife, whereas it is questionable whether he would allow his wife to discourse, or to be, without him.  Before I left them I told the Brethren that If the Church Should desire to come together to see or Enquire what their Duty was with regard to other Churches and Ministers I would not hinder it: but must pray that as I was not willing to bind their Consciences, so I would not have them to bind mine.  I would do whatever should be consistent with Church Order and a good Conscience, but they might not expect me to go any further.  Thus I left the House in peace.  They had entertained us handsomely, and Mr. Fish and Mr. Cushing tarried there; the Brethren that were more Zealous laid hold of the present Opportunity and improved the Help of those Gentlemen to draw up a Request for a Church meeting which seven of them signed.  Capt. Wood and Mr. Whipple rode home with me.  I rejoice so much has been obtained, and so considerable a stop put to Evil — but it is with trembling, through Fear of what may follow in the Church.  God only is our Refuge and Help.  To Him I desire humbly to look!