1752 January 2 (Thursday). At Deacon Newton’s a.m. The Deacon did not begin with me, but I with him about the uneasiness in the Church about the Sudbury affair; and being the private Meeting was to be at his House this Afternoon I would have him tell the Brethren when they are there — that I was perswaded they mistook my Design that Sabbath, but however, since I now know their minds, and that their inclination was to have had opportunity to pass a vote — if it were to do again, I would not do as I did. Least the Deacon should mistake my meaning I sent Billy with a note — at Eve came the Deacon, as if I had unraveled by my paper what I had spoke by word of mouth. With him came Captain Baker, Lieutenant Tainter, Lieutenant Bruce, Mr. Francis Whipple, Mr. Daniel Hardy, and after them Lieutenant Bruce and Mr. Batheric. By what they said I was so convinced of my omitting to deliver some things concerning my Conference with Captain Richardson etc. that I believed my Conduct at that Time when I dismissed the Church appeared exceptional and as if I bore upon their privilege. I told ‘em it must needs be through such omissions that I was sorry — they all listened satisfyed but I had a night of oppressing Thought, and sinking Faintness at my Heart, which was very distressing. Mr. Isaac Harrington here to tell me my piggs were at Mr. Thomas Axtell’s.