1774 November 12 (Saturday). Am under heavyest Troubles that I have (I think) at any Time been in, by reason of the unfitness of my Frame and unpreparedness for this Season’s arriving. I have so much desired to keep the Jubilee with Jubilation. But I am under the holy Frown of Heaven by the Disquietness of my People with me. This presses me sore, and deprives me of sleep. With the Various Interruptions of the Week, and the perplexities of my mind, I am but too brokenly and imperfectly prepared for the Services of the Sabbath. May God graciously appear for me and help me!