March 20, 1754

1754 March 20 (Wednesday).  Greatly engag’d and troubled in my Mind about Mr. Smiths Conduct, and much perplex’d what Course to take:  to throw up will tend much to the ruin of Mr. Smith however he has brought it upon himself in giving me so great Reason for it:  on the other Hand to go on is exceeding Dangerous:  and it will soon be too late for my son to go to Brookfield.  May the Lord influence my Mind and Heart and direct me what Course to take.  Visit Captain Forbush’s Wife, mourning for the Loss of her sister Sawin.